I keep the story as a reminder of cognitive biases when I prepare projects. And about how easy it is to fall into the traps of conventions and assumptions.
It was in a former soviet country. Once the gate closes behind you, the air, the walls, the smell, people looks all say “welcome to urss”. Not a very welcome “welcome” though.
It was a planned trip. The administration knew we are coming. White table cloth on meeting tables betrayed it. You cannot come in an unannounced visit to a prison, unless gifted with invisibility skills. What I could not have planned were my feelings and sensations. It does not help being a lawyer trained in human rights in this case.
After a dull meeting with silent and very tense staff, a guided tour was offered by the administration. After the first wall, the family reunion hall opened its door in front of us. A hall with seven doors: a kitchen, five bedrooms with king size beds, and a bathroom. It’s the dream land for any inmates. For good behavior they get up to five days of family time per year with one of their loved ones. In the kitchen we found a beautiful young woman with big eyes and long lashes. She was cooking a meal for her husband who was sentenced to 20 years in prison. I saw sadness and commitment and no trace of resentment in her eyes. Will she be coming every year for the next 18 years to cook meals for her husband? When they retrieved to “their” room, tears filled my eyes.
After the security zone crowned by barbed wire, where a cat seemed chez-soi, we were taken into the heart of the prison. The prison has three blocks. The first one we were taken to was presented as exemplary: clean and all beds were made. It was remarkable as it was a large room, 70 by 100 feet, beds one by one, with tiny passages between the endless rows. I asked whether it looks so orderly because they knew that we were coming. “No”, assured me the head of prison, “it’s a norm now, after quite „a lot of invested effort and time into discipline”, whatever that means. It was the mine workers block, who get paid for their work and also get their term cut: a day for three days worked in a nearby mine. The room was filled with testosterone. Me and my other female colleague were safe, behind our colleagues from headquarters and their wide shoulders. In parallel, what I found striking was how relaxed were inmates compared to prison staff. After all, they got it right, it was not them who were inspected.
What followed were a cascade of feelings. An overwhelming feeling of gratitude for my every day meals, when I entered the prison canteen. Gratitude for my health, when I stepped on the white floor of the medical care unit. The feeling of awe for the human creativity when I entered the church the walls in which were being painted by an inmate. The gratitude for my family when I looked into the eyes of a 70 old who stubbed his wife and she was still visiting him in prison. The gratitude for the abundance in my life when I saw two women surrounded by packages of food to fit into a wagon waiting for clearance to enter the prison and feed their dear ones. The acute awareness of the gift of freedom on the tiny, dark corridors of the solitary confinement ….
We were then taken to a workshop where some inmate were filling their days with wood crafts. Good behavior was a ticket to the wood workshop. I noticed the sharp objects they were using and asked whether there are any incidents/accidents involved. “No”, assured me again the head of prison. I asked an old inmate what was he crafting. “A toy for my daughter” he said. It was a beautiful wooden horse. He was dreaming of freedom…